Where i am going...

I know I must be getting somewhere. Where is that? I don’t know, but it is somewhere where fulfillment of what I am searching for lies. It is an interesting adventure to be seeking something and not quite being sure what it is. I mean, if I had to be specific, I would say that it is fulfillment that I am seeking. But I’m not sure that could be considered specific. However, I am finding that it is the way to go about it. Instead of seeking power, wealth, admiration, romance or even love, I think an inner sense of contentment and wholeness is the ultimate realization worth aiming for. Part of me believes that all those other things will be met along the way. If it isn’t, that is fine too, because they are all but a means to an end after all. Yeah, now that I think of it, it is kind of a selfish pursuit. But I am okay with that because I also thing that service is also along this path. I mean, is it really possible to find the kind of fulfillment that I am thinking of without being of some service to mankind? Even if it is not in some tangible way that I would be in service, the very fact that I am in a state of joy and peace should have some positive effect on those who surround me. Also I can’t imagine anybody being in this state and being any kind of nuisance to people in general. Sure there are some people who like to see people be as miserable as they are, and will get out of their way to bring a person, who is elevated to this state, down to their sad state. But these are usually people who are resistant to surrendering to the joyful side of life and can’t be helped anyway. Ultimately, we are the only ones who can bring ourselves to wholeness anyhow, right. Anyhow my intentions are set, and I have decided that I will do, or not do, whatever it takes to come into that state of being where I flow with life and surrender to that place within where the ego has no hold of me, and is instead a servant of my spirit.